Struggling

I just want to tear the eyes out of my skull. I spend most of my time applying online for jobs and if I'm lucky maybe an interview will happen. And if I'm extra lucky, maybe they'll try not to slam the door in my face after the interview or give me one of those nice business cards to write stuff on. It sucks as it is waking up everyday feeling like "what the hell am I doing alive?" or "I don't have a purpose in life anymore." And tell you what, it's bloody awesome to be told that the American dream is "alive and well", because that what it is a bloody fantasy, a dream world that is perpetuated by the news giving empty promises of "small signs" that things are getting better when they really aren't. 100's of resumes sent off for part-time jobs and "only a selected few" are brought into an interview. Then there's the whole proper interview conduct of being expected to sit up straight and feedback questions instantly with no hesitation while not being allowed to look at your cell-phone and play that dumb new game on your iphone when you know damn well that the interviewer is playing solitaire on their PC right in front of you and doesn't care about the interview either.

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